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Mr. Adjacent and I arrived in Cardiff by train on Friday afternoon and promptly ran into shinyjenni and a bunch of other fangirls. Yay! We had two lovely vidshows: Vidder's Choice and a 90's Vidshow. I had vids in both! It was quite possibly the awesomest moment I've experienced as a vidder to date to be in a room of fangirls watching Everywhere. Watching it on big screen gave me all the Xena/Gab feels, and hearing people's responses was <i>awesome</i>. It's a moment I will try to remember when I feel like vidding is the worst and I'm not even a real vidder anyway.
Saturday was a bunch of wonderful vidshows that are sadly all a blur at the moment, except that the Festivids vidshow left me in a state of utter shock and delight at how fantastic that exchange is. I missed a lot of Festivids this year because I had (non-fannish) company during go-live, so I had only seen one of the vids shown (the Wallace and Grommit vid), but hot damn those were amazing. Every single one.
My panel on feedback went well, I thought, we had a good discussion at any rate. I wish I could find the magic smoking bullet that would enable us all to give and get the vid feedback we deserve, but alas such a thing is not to be found in a panel discussion I suppose. (And I should note that I'm not really fussed about the amount or quality of feedback I get; in fact I have gotten some comments on my Vidukon premiere that left me melting with joy and I haven't yet responded to most of them!)
I missed beccatoria 's video game vidding panel and the Eurovision vidshow because jet lag had me so exhausted. I took a little nap after dinner, during the Eurovision vid show, and waking up to go to premieres was surreally awful. I had that horrible nauseated exhaused feeling, like I was hungover but without the headache? And it sorta lasted the whole rest of the next day.
But I still had a great time. I watched so many vids I loved, and had great conversations, and people were so amazingly friendly and welcoming which was really really great. I loved getting to meet beccatoria, goodbyebird, silly_cleo, raven , amnesias, purplefringe, such_heights, happydork, isagel, and carawj , as well as discovering some new online friends! :D I'm already scheming how to get a postdoc in the UK or Germany so I can come back every year.
Song: "Starkville" by the Indigo Girls
Source: Xena: Warrior Princess
Characters: Gabrielle, Xena (Gabrielle character study)
Content notes: Bright flashes. Institutional and relationship violence (as depicted on the show). Spoilers throughout the series.
Summary: "I chose the way of friendship"
Captions are available on the youtube and vimeo streams. They are also included in the downloadable zip file. If you don't want captions, just delete the .srt file.
As always, please feel free to contact me if you want more specific information about warnings/content notes.
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But what I've just realized is that the vid actually is more nuanced than the essay. That's no mean feat for a vid. (Though, admittedly, the essay isn't terribly nuanced.)
It celebrates beloved characters while also longing for more for them, and more of them. It loves at least as much as it criticizes. It begrudgingly admits we fangirls will take what we can get, while always hoping for more.
It wins my heart by subtly suggesting that Buffy and Xena are exactly the kind of women characters we need more of.
Relatedly, I feel like Orphan Black and Orange is the New Black have reduced my already-low tolerance for shows about dudes.
(By the way, the Guardian's description of *what* El Niño is is wrong. It should say: "El Niño is a climate phenomenon that occurs when a vast pool of water in the
This could mean drought relief for California, but it also is associated with major reductions in the rice crop in south and southeast Asia. Back in my hometown of Seattle, it can mean warmer/drier winters than usual, which is good for mental health but not so great for mountain snowpack.
*For those of you used to looking at maps that center the Atlantic, the eastern Pacific is close to the Americas, and the western Pacific is close to Asia.
And through it I keep thinking a few things:
- sanguinity, chaila, beccatoria, and I (when I can keep up! I'll get there) are having a fascinating conversation about different theories of justice, coding people as indigenous, and pwning ladies in Xena and Wonder Woman.
- I am beyond sick of grimdark (usually white dude) stories==morally complex and "grown up". I'm not saying that the original essay makes that equation (wouldn't know, didn't read it), but, I just...I want fiction that is morally complex and offers hope. (Cynicism for its own sake is frankly not very morally complex, but it seems like both books and television shows can write terrible stories with characters who make no sense whatsoever and get away with it if they are cynical.)
- I also want to be able to read without struggling through sentences, and I want to be engaged enough in the story and/or characters that I can keep reading. Also I want the characters in my fiction to not make me feel like something has crawled inside me and died.
- I would nonetheless love to read/watch more stories about people over the age of 35.
Chaila gave me The Hiketeia, which I devoured pretty quickly (well, after I figured out how to get Simple Comic to work right). It was a great story with some awesome Wonder Woman action and two great women characters.
I was surprised a little by how Diana claimed she didn't care what Danielle had done, to the point of kinda cutting off the conversation. It was an interesting ethical dilemma where I didn't really agree with anyone. I mean, I am fine with what Danielle did, but only because of the reason why she did it, which Diana claimed to not care about. (Though it seemed like she did care about it, since she was contemplating how she'd have felt if it were her sisters.) But honoring the Hiketeia was the major motivator for her, which I obviously don't identify with but it was pretty interesting nonetheless.
It definitely made me want to read more, and I imagine that if/when I do read more WW, I'll go back to the story and read it with a new level of emotional/intellectual engagement with the characters and stories.
I also thought the art was quite pretty, though I do predictably dislike the way women are drawn. It's not as bad as many comics but the contorted-torso-butt-and-boob poses were definitely there. But I liked how it conveyed the action.
The only thing I really wished was different was that it had spent more time on Diana and Danielle's relationship. I wish I had gotten to see them spending time together, to see how Danielle got good at her job instead of just having Diana tell me. But I wouldn't have wanted that at the expense of anything else, so I'd have wanted the book to be longer. :)
I also spent way too much time this weekend making icons and looking for caps. It was too much time because I really should have been resting my wrists, and now it's Monday morning and they're a little sore. Not a great start to a busy work week.
I also made no-knead bread this weekend, which I try to do regularly. I miss baking in general, though especially chocolate chip cookies and quick breads (I used to make this delicious olive oil bread). I'm finally ready to buy a cheap mixer, I think. I had a great stand mixer back in Seattle but, even disregarding the cost of shipping something so heavy, it can't run on the voltage/frequency here. (Same with my fancy curling wand, boo hoo.)
I finished the weekend with Orphan Black, which was awesome as usual, my favorite scenes being ( spoilers )
So, basically it's a dream come true. I can supply caps, and all you amazing icon makers out there can do your magic with them! (OK, I realize not all of my caps will be made icons, but a girl can dream.) Whether you're an avid iconner or just like the pretty pictures, check out the request fest, running 'till June 7th!
Send me a show and I'll tell you...
- The first character I fell in love with:
- The character who is my ‘baby’:
- The character who I do not understand:
- The character that I think the show ruined:
- The most attractive male and female character:
- The character death that was the worst for me:
- The character that is the most like me:
- The character I think the writer(s) love:
- The character that I just want to be happy:
- My four favorite characters, past or present:
- My four least favorite characters, past or present:
I think all my shows appear in my tags list?
I'm already almost halfway through The Language of Power and I'm coming to the cold hard realisation that this book is not going to end with any more resolution than its predecessors. :( I'm loving these books so dearly, but I see now the price for jumping in in the middle of a multi-decade WIP.
That being said, The Outskirter's Secret, which I never really discussed here, has probably been my favorite. Awesome adventure! So much Bel-Rowan hangout fun! Rowan being all out of sorts! Seven thousand mother fucking delightful new characters.
But I did adore Steffie, and Zenna, and the "Demons" in The Lost Steersman, and I am enjoying The Language of Power, especially Rowan and Bel's comfortable dynamic.
( Spoilers for The Lost Steersman )
Oh, and while I was digging around to remind myself of Janus's name because I forgot it for a second, I saw from Rosemary Kirstein's blog that she was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. And apparently her treatment seems to have obliterated it!
Title: Become You
Song: "Become You" by the Indigo Girls
Source: Xena: Warrior Princess
Characters: Xena, Lao Ma, M'lila, and Gabrielle. Caesar and Ming Tien also appear.
Content notes: Fast and stuttery cutting. Institutional and relationship violence (at the same level as depicted on the show). Spoilers through mid Season 5.
Summary: "I won't stop short for common ground/ that villifies the trodden down"
Thanks to thirdblindmouse for incredible beta feedback.
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(And now I have no idea how I'm gonna choose the icon for this post. Might go with random. OK I went with one of the many I hang onto because I <3 it even though I never get a chance to use it.)
ETA: it occurs to me I could alleviate this "problem" somewhat by posting and commenting more...
“You’re so noble,” the villain sneered, because he’d totally expected him to do that noble thing he’d just done but he was totally secretly impressed. “Not like me. I do whatever I want. So why do I secretly admire and maybe even love you a little bit?”via Flaws Only a Protagonist Could Have on The Toast. (The whole thing is well worth a read. OK the whole site is well worth a read.)
“Whoa,” he said.
“Wait,” the villain said. “I didn’t mean to say that last part. What I meant was why does your goodness shine through the light of my evil deeds and make me wish I was worth of you somehow?”
“Wait,” the villain said again. “You’re noble in a bad way, not a good way,” but it was too late. He was secretly good now, and they were going to become heroic friends.
( Spoilers for The Steerswoman, vaguely spoilery for the beginning of The Outskirter's Secret )
The slow reveal that This World is Not What You Thought has been an utter delight. I tend to skim descriptions when I read, and I've been forcing myself to slow down, to actually visualise what's being described, because the world-building that's done through description of objects and scenery is part of the book's awesomeness.
It's been obvious to me that Tatiana Maslany has incredible range as an actor. And, through reading a bit about the way the show is made, I've come to realize how technically skilled she is as well, to be able to pour a glass of wine for herself and whatnot make the movement look natural. But I never really thought about what different skill sets those two things are, and now I'm just even more amazed than I was before.
I started the S2 premiere and realized halfway through the "previously on" that I really needed to watch the last few episodes of S1, which Mr. Adjacent and I never got to in our rewatch a few months ago. So watching one episode turned into a four episode marathon, which I actually haven't done since the throes of my Breaking Bad obsession eight or nine months ago.
( Spoilers for S2E01 )
I realized I've become very attached to a few bits of headcanon, and I should probably work on letting go of them in case they don't hold up this season.
*Has no spoilers for S2, including the premiere, but it does have a few vague hints at future developments that some might not want to see.
And it was an easy question to answer for S1. Character-wise, S1 was about Joan and Sherlock meeting and developing trust and friendship. It was about Sherlock's recovery and Joan's career change. It was about both of them connecting with each other and, through their relationship, to other people as well (Marcus, Alfredo, Ms. Hudson, etc). Plot wise, it was mostly one-offs, but the Moriarty plot was in the background for over half the season, and when you consider how it connects to Sherlock's recovery, it was there all along.
This season, I don't know. I keep waiting for it to really pick up, and a couple of weeks ago I was a little surprised to realize that we're closing in on the season finale and it hasn't. Not that I haven't liked watching it, not that Joan and Sherlock don't charm me every episode, but it's starting to wear a bit thin. I want my slow burn just a little less slow, please.
Maybe this is normal for this kind of show? I never really watched ER or Law and Order or other shows that seem close in genre to Elementary.
(I have looked at the Fanlore pages for VVCs past, and they include links to some people's post-con write-ups, which have been a helpful start for sure.)
Right now I definitely want to include some space to discuss whether/how we can constructively criticise vids for their content and not just their form, but I don't really see myself filling a full time slot with just that. In addition to that, I was thinking some other things that might be good to do:
- a group concrit or beta process as part of the panel (I'd ask for volunteers to submit a vid for this, or do one of my own).
- people share experiences with feedback/beta that was helpful and talk about why
- people talk about how they approach being a beta or other ways of giving feedback
Any other ideas? I'm in brainstorm mode so I'd love to hear anything that might be relevant. Even thoughts on feedback, praise, and constructive criticism of things other than vids would be super cool.