[sticky entry] Sticky: My vids

26 Sep 2012 06:14 pm
frayadjacent: drawing from hyperbole and a half: cartoon girl at laptop at night, text says "vidding" (!vidding)
All my vids: Angel, BtVS, Elementary, Friday Night Lights, The Black Stallion, Whale Rider, and Xena )

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Feel free to to post my vids, post critiques, analysis, etc, and use them in transformative works.  I would be honored if anyone engaged with my fanworks in these ways. But please refer people to the individual vid post or this post if you do so.

You're also welcome to link to any of my public posts. However, if you know my real name, please do not associate that name with this journal or pseudonym.

Accessibility

In all my vids I warn for graphic violence, sexual and domestic violence, and major character death. I also warn for stuttery cuts and bright flashes (which are more likely to appear in my vids than the above). I welcome any questions about content of my vids as well as recommendations for warnings I haven't used; feel free to PM me here or gmail me at frayadjacent12.

I'm slowly adding subtitles to all my vids; if there's a vid you want subtitled right away, please let me know and I'll get to it first thing.

frayadjacent: Buffy looking bored (BtVS: Buffy bored)
From a NYT piece about procrastination:
But if procrastination is so clearly a society-wide, public condition, why is it always framed as an individual, personal deficiency? Why do we assume our own temperaments and habits are at fault — and feel bad about them — rather than question our culture’s canonization of productivity?
Despite over a decade of subscribing to anti-capitalist politics, it's easy for me to feel guilt and dread over the ebb and flow of my own productivity -- especially at work, but also when it comes to housework, running, or even vidding. On that note, I'm having trouble feeling excited about my WIP. It's coming along, but I'm also in a moment of resurging Buffy feels and I kinda want to work on one of my vid ideas for her. So I might just give it a rest for a while. Maybe send it to a beta.



frayadjacent: Buffy and Kendra back to back (from a promo shot) (BtVS: Buffy and Kendra)
Um, I may or may not have spent 6 hours reading old BtVS meta last night. One of the things I happily came across was one of my favorite visuals about what rocks about BtVS and Xena: [livejournal.com profile] gabrielleabelle's Women, Connecting graphic showing the many relationships among women on those shows. I know I've linked to this in the past but I still think it's awesome. Besides, a fangirl should always cite her sources.

Because I've been thinking: one of the things I've been loving about Sleepy Hollow is the many relationships it shows among people of color. Like, at the point I'm at in the show, Ichabod is basically the only white character, at least in the present day scenes (and the Revolutionary War flashbacks hardly count as part of the show in my head). I thought it would be awesome to do a graphic like this for characters of color in Sleepy Hollow, but since I haven't caught up on the series, I thought that for contrast it'd be interesting to do something similar for characters of color in BtVS.

Images beneath the cut )

ETA: I've since realized that Gabrielle did an update to her Women, Connecting graphic that's pretty on par, in terms of major/minor characters used, with my first one. Perhaps more interestingly, she did one for men and shows that what's unique about BtVS is not that relationships among women outnumber those among men, but that they're roughly equivalent, unlike say Star Trek TNG. I do suspect that in Xena you would find that women majorly outnumber men, but maybe that's just internalized sexism speaking.

frayadjacent: Buffy looking bored (BtVS: Buffy bored)
I had one of those "work from home" days that turned into some working and a lot of tooling around on the internet, reading old meta about old shows and watching vids. I've had very little alone time in the last...month or more, so I don't feel too bad and know I needed it. But I also know I can get into cycles where that's *all* I want to do, and that way leads depression and anxiety and diminishing career prospects.

I wish I could work more productively from home, because I love the idea. But the reality, 80% of the time, is it doesn't work for me. The other 20% is when I have a hard deadline.

On the other hand, I did finally send off beta feedback about a vid I'm super excited about, so it wasn't a total loss.
frayadjacent: A cute orange kitty's face (!kitty)
Yesterday I typed up a whole post on my phone and then lost it. I was too annoyed to rewrite it, but I'll try again today!

1. I'm going to apply for a job that I could get, but probably won't because it's competitive, and don't feel remotely ready for. Because I had a conversation with some colleagues last week about how women go for things when they're 150% ready and men go for them when they're 50% ready. So I'm trying to buck up or something. God I sound like such a liberal feminist.

Also the job is in a country that is not the US or Australia. A country that might be great to live in for a year or two. Did I mention that this is a permanent faculty job?

2. My wrists are mostly keeping me from vidding but I did work a bit on my WIP this past weekend. In the meantime I'm watching lots of vids and listening to vidsongs-to-be on repeat. I'm trying to remember my stretches and exercises so I can vid again! If only I didn't have to spend so much time on the computer at work...

3. I love my new home still. It's amazing how much happier I am there. The weather warmed up this week and Miss Kitty finally went out in the garden, so now she loves it too. Oh and I just found out that I will have the option to stay 6 extra months at my current job, which means two more summers in Melbourne and in my new home. <3
frayadjacent: Willow and Xander with their hair standing on end, literally (BtVS: everything wonky)
I've now watched the first four episodes of Sleepy Hollow and am pretty well hooked. The fourth episode in particular deals with Abbie and Jenny's relationship in a compelling way. The two have great chemistry and their scenes have brought out some fabulous acting on Nicole Beharie's part.

I love that Abbie and Jenny get to have all the angst and complex history. Meanwhile, Ichabod is like "oh yeah I woke up 200 years in the future and everyone I care about is dead or trapped in a horrible mirror dimension but enough about me, I'm good, let's attend to *your* emotions and needs."

<3

I could really do without all the George Washington worship, though at this point it's getting silly enough that it goes with the general plot-holyness cracky fun. Kinda.
frayadjacent: Buffy and Willow, who's the only part of the image in color and is wearing a silly outfit. Text says "adorkable". (!Adorkable)
We moved! We're much closer to my work now, and it's amazing what not having a 1-1.5 hour commute where I'm constantly being bumped and jostled by grown ass adults with no home training and breathing in cigarette smoke will do for my state of mind. Yesterday after work I went to the supermarket, where I perused the aisles long enough to actually find what I wanted, then went to two different green-grocers before walking home, and I arrived around the time I normally would have just from my commute. In a much, much better mood.

What I learned this year is that I'm not nearly the city person I might have imagined. I still would much rather walk and take public transport than drive, but really I'm a "living near public transport and a supermarket, also in an area with sidewalks" person.

Also I now hear birds instead of motorcycles and trams in the morning. And we have a little courtyard! Which Miss Kitty has yet to explore, but she will and she'll love it.

Less awesomely, Mr Adjacent and I have both had colds all week, and mine doesn't seem to be getting better. Just shifting around between different respiratory canals.

We won't have internet at our new apartment till Monday, so we're watching television that we had previously downloaded for long flights but never watched. Namely Sleepy Hollow, which is every bit as delightfully cracky as everyone says. It sorta reminds me of the first season of BtVS, but with higher production values and about adults and not doing the central metaphor of each episode thing. I am very excited about Abbie and Jennifer. I've seen the first two episodes only -- no spoilers please!
frayadjacent: drawing from hyperbole and a half: cartoon girl at laptop at night, text says "vidding" (!vidding)
This is in principle my last question for the vidding meme, but I'm happy to take more questions and will probably do a few more on my own just because I like them.

[personal profile] colls asked: Do you work mostly from start to finish, or do you vid sections out of order?

Bit of both, but my orientation is very much to go from start to finish, and I've had to train myself out of that. Even though I use a non-linear editor! A number of people have talked about how when they get an idea for a vid, there are a few spots that are clear in their minds, and those are the parts they make first. And of course I also have some very vivid ideas for a few spots in the vid, but for some reason I often wait to put those down!

So, anyway, I do vid out of order, but I find that I get major mental blocks if the first ~15 seconds of the vid aren't solid. This made "Become You" a major headache cause I never could work out how to open the vid. Even after I submitted it to Wiscon I continued to fiddle with the opening.  But apart from that I do vid out of order, according to where I have ideas/what I'm excited to work on/what I've already clipped.

So, like right now my WIP has a ~75% full timeline. I imported the episodes directly into Premiere, but since I'm not super duper familiar with the source I'm scrubbing through the episodes chronologically. However when I started the vid there was one part I was pretty excited about that involved clips from the last episode, so I vidded that first. Ironically I am now planning to change that section! Anyway, I have a pretty solid structure planned for the vid so as I scrub through the episodes and find relevant clips, I drop them directly onto the timeline and fiddle from there. And I alternate between doing that and making changes to sections I've already worked on, according to whatever is most appealing at the time.

frayadjacent: Tara McClay leaning in to tell Willow she's special. (BtVS: Tara Awkward)
[personal profile] umadoshi asked: describe your comfort zone: a typical you vid.

In a nutshell, a character study looking through the lens of a relationship (not necessarily romantic). Or, more accurately, a study on how a relationship shapes and changes a character. I suspect that this wouldn't describe the majority of my vids, but it would describe a plurality. It's probably more true of my recent vids than my past ones; none of my Buffy vids focuses on any of her relationships. Even "Deeds That Have Made Me" is not about her relationship with Angel per se; it's about the lasting effects that killing him had on her.

This isn't so much because it's what's comfortable as it is an expression of what interests me and what kind of music gives me vid bunnies.

Speaking of, it's more accurate to say that I have a major comfort zone when it comes to music. I really prefer to vid music with lots of acoustic instrumentation, kind of in the broad folk/indi genre. I think only two of my vids fall outside this category. And probably about half of my current vid ideas are this general type of music as well. I just find music like that really fun and easy to vid.
frayadjacent: From "Veronica Mars": Veronica's head on her desk, text says "Fuck it, I need a nap" (VM: Fuck it need a nap)
And I have a headache. But it's going fine enough, we're already in the unpacking stage. Anyway I might not post again this weekend, but I still intend to keep up with the regular posting and meme-finishing. I've really been enjoying the discussions on DW lately. I even started checking it before Twitter in the morning!
frayadjacent: Buffy with her arms crossed from "Checkpoint", text says, "Power: I have it" (BtVS: Power)
[personal profile] beccatoria asked: Which vid was the hardest to make?

Definitely Tightrope! It was my biggest learning curve technically, especially with the speed changes and freeze frames. (OMG, my favorite thing about Premiere as opposed to Final Cut is how *easy* the former makes speed changes.)

The one thing that wasn't difficult about Tightrope was clip availability. On the other hand, one of my biggest issues with Become You was the utter lack of clips available to say what I wanted to say, especially about M'Lila. I also really struggled with the bridge in that vid, because it had a lot it needed to accomplish in terms of getting the viewer from point A to point B and frankly it was too much, at least for my current ability. So in that quite different sense Become You was also difficult.

frayadjacent: Lao Ma (character from Xena) staring back (Xena: Lao Ma)
[personal profile] beccatoria asked: Point to a section from one of your favorite vids you've made and explain why you're proud of it.

I'm gonna be a big ole bragger (we vidders don't get enough opportunities to boast) and pick four.

1. The third verse in Tightrope, from 2:06-2:27, where I put in a lot of effort to get the blocking and motion to match up between clips and kept the energy high all in the service of a strong narrative focus on Buffy challenging authority figures and taking an egalitarian approach instead of an authoritarian one. I'm especially proud of how I worked in Quentin Travers around 2:15, stutter cutting across 4 seasons and matching the blocking with Buffy's horrible test in Checkpoint. And the final clip of this section, where she walks away from Wesley, is possibly my favorite in the vid, both because of the lyrical matching and what I did with speed changes and freeze frames.

2. The bridge in Everywhere, from 1:49-2:06. The first verse is Xena's pov, the second Gabrielle's, so part of the task of the bridge was to move to a dual pov. Relatedly, this section of the vid was all about them coming together as a team/couple. So I started with how they are different, by juxtaposing Gabrielle dancing with clips of Xena fighting. And because this silly show has a Footloose episode and two musical episodes, I was able to gradually bring them together by showing Xena go from trying to stop Gabrielle dancing to joining in, and by showing Gabrielle's dancing look more and more militaristic, until at the end of the section they are dancing and fighting side by side.

I also love the montage of OTP feels in the last chorus, around 2:47-3:23. This part wasn't particularly difficult to make, it more felt like the payoff for harder work I did in earlier sections of the vid.

3. The section of Become You where Lao Ma is watching Xena, around 0:42. Also a bit later in the vid I ran a clip of Lao Ma stepping backwards and looking serene in reverse, so she is stepping forward with an expression of desire, at 0:58-1:01. I wanted to show her agency and desire for Xena and those sections are particularly successful at doing that.

Also in that vid, the section paralleling Lao Ma's execution with Xena's near execution, at 2:22-2:38. This almost feels unfair because the source did so much of the work in terms of visual parallels, and for some reason the clips of Xena fighting blended beautifully with the execution scenes so the whole thing is just pretty.

More than any recent vid of mine, this one has sections I love and sections I'm deeply unsatisfied with. I suppose that's not surprising since it is the most ambitious vid I've made yet in terms of argument. Anyway it was nice to share a bit of the former with you all, since I've been fairly focused on the latter since I published the vid.

4. I'm really proud of the ending of Starkville, from about 3:49 on. Again, the show provided me with easy visual parallels and metaphors, I just had to put them there and play with blending modes a bit. The most complicated thing I did there, besides the fire overlay, was to put a reddish gradient overlay on that entire final section and faded it out a little more slowly than I did the last clip, which makes her bloody and brutal facial expression fade to red before it fades to black. I was quite happy with that.
frayadjacent: text says, "haters gonna make some good points" (haters gonna make good points)
I'm getting a bit behind on answering comments today due to an epic bad mood this morning, but I'm carrying on with the daily posting!

[personal profile] goodbyebird asked: what do you look for in a beta?

In the past my main answer would have been to not be afraid to give me concrit. Don't get me wrong: my feelings are as tender as the next vidder's, and it will take a moment for my bruised ego to recover. But I'm always grateful for it. Not only does it help the vid and me as a vidder, it also gives me a boost of confidence that, when I post my vid, it's been viewed by at least one person who would have told me if it sucked.

I don't even mind if the concrit is of the "if this were my vid I'd do this" type, because it's obvious to me that if my beta has a different idea of what the vid should be doing than I do, I can always ignore some or all of their advice. But it's still useful to get the information of what they think the vid should be doing, because maybe it means that it's not currently getting its purpose across clearly enough.

However, praise is also great! I love the confidence boost, and if the praise is specific about what is working and why, that's every bit as useful as concrit.

So a more general answer might be, as [personal profile] shati said, a "discriptivist" beta. As in, "the vid is doing this", whether that functions as praise (because that's what I wanted it to do!) or criticism.

A few vidders have answered this question along the lines of, "someone to bounce ideas off of", which sounds SO GREAT but I'm always worried I'm asking too much of my betas so I've never done this before. I mean if nothing else, just having to put into words what I want a vid to do would probably be super useful. Anyway after the Orphan Black S2 finale I did have a great time chatting with [personal profile] violace about a vid idea, so that was at least a step in that direction.

Vids to be

8 Sep 2014 08:10 am
frayadjacent: Adaped from the hyperbole & a half comic, stick figure girl is very excitedly shouting "vid all the things!!!" (Vid all the things!!!)
[personal profile] goodbyebird asked: how many vid ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share any?

AKA Many Vid Plans post! I'll go by fandom. Intellectually I know I'm not likely to make all of these, but these are the ideas I'm actively excited about right now and mostly can't bear the thought of not making.

Xena Vid Series From Hell
2-5 more vids, depending on when you ask. The two I definitely still want to make are 1) a comedy vid about Gabrielle's Horse Fails and 2) an epic Xena/Gab vid that will be partly about coming to terms with the series finale. The first of these involved some of the most difficult song-editing I've done yet, so I figure I'm committed. The other three are 1) a "Xena has manpain" vid, which I've already planned out and will probably make, 2) a vid about Xena and Gabrielle's relationships with other women in the show (because damn there's a lot of women) and 3) a kink vid that I still don't quite have nailed down conceptually.

Orphan Black
I definitely want to make my OB kink vid. I'm also thinking about a clone ensemble vid but I might wait till after the third season. And maybe a Felix vid focusing on the less-awesome aspects of his relationship with Sarah and how it relates to his friendship with Allison.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Haha, more than I realized before making this list! 1) A Buffy character study, basically a counterpart/companion to Tightrope. 2) A Buffy-Dawn-Joyce feels vid. 3) A vid about Giles and Buffy that I completely clipped and subsequently lost interest in making. But I still hope I do. 4) A Willow-PoV vid about her friendship with Buffy.

Farscape
Aeryn character vid. I still haven't finished season 4 though! /o\
frayadjacent: Orphan Black's Sarah's face in close up, text says "you're damn right" (Orphan Black: Sarah damn right)
[personal profile] goodbyebird asked: talk about your current vids in progress.

Mainly an Orphan Black Team Sadler+ vid. I'm pretty excited about it right now which is not great timing when my wrists are acting up a bit (don't worry, I'm writing this on my phone) and I really aught to be packing for my upcoming move next weekend.

The song is perfect for the subject and is a cool song to vid. I've gotten very comfortable vidding "white people with acoustic instruments" type music, and this isn't that. My usual Neko Case/Indigo Girls/Ani Difranco/Decemberists thing is easy music for me to vid, in part because I often prefer to vid to the melody and harmony than to the drums, and that type of music lends itself well to that style. Along with vague song lyrics :D. But sometimes I think it's funny that I mostly vid that type of music when it's not what I mostly listen to. Anyway the song I'm vidding right now is a challenge for me in a good way.

However, the song has a section that any reasonable watcher-of-vids would expect me to edit out, and I'm not. Instead I'm doing something that I think is awesome with it. Something that, once I committed to it, ended up putting a really cool twist on the whole concept of the vid. But it makes the vid 5 minutes long, and some people might find that part hard to watch/listen to. So I'm recognizing that not everyone will probably like my choice. That's fine, because I think it's awesome.

frayadjacent: Buffy and Willow, who's the only part of the image in color and is wearing a silly outfit. Text says "adorkable". (!Adorkable)
[personal profile] shati and [personal profile] chaila asked: Is there a genre or style you've yet to try your hand at, but really want to?

Yes! On a small level, I realized with my last few vids -- basically since I switched to Premiere and discovered the film dissolve and different blend modes -- I'm in danger of relying too much on dissolves and overlays. So I decided my WIP would have NO dissolves and NO overlays, which I thought fit the song and the vid well anyway. Then I discovered one spot where a dissolve really did work well and made the moment 100x better, so I went with it, but it's the only spot!

More broadly, I would love to make a stream-of-consciousness type of vid that is all about motion, or perhaps some other visual aspect. I'd still need some sort of additional common denominator and I don't yet know what that would be. It would be a fun use of one of my "I'd like to vid this song but I have no ideas for it" songs.

Also I have plans for an Orphan Black kink vid and possibly a Xena kink vid. That's pretty new territory to me and I'm very excited about them. The Xena kink vid was originally my plan for [personal profile] kiki_miserychic's femslash vidshow at VVC this year, but then I ran out of time and also got insecure about the idea and didn't want to premiere it at VVC. (Not because it was kink, but because I worried it would be criticised as a boring "they're so doing it" slash vid.) Though I don't want to under-emphasize how much the running out of time bit played a role as well.

[personal profile] chaila asked: If you were to revise one of your older vids from start to finish, which would it be and why?

I am planning to do this! Well I hope to anyway. For [personal profile] elipie's Take 2 challenge! Anyway, I would revise my first vid, The World is a Very Scary Place. It's a pretty terrible vid (aspect ratio! what are those fast fades doing in there! what does half of this even mean) but I still love the concept of a fun Buffy S1 vid to that song, focusing on the "High School is Hell" metaphor.

[personal profile] chaila asked: Share three of your favorite vidders and why you like them so much.

Eeeee, questions like this are super hard for me, so I'm going to use this as a chance to give a shoutout to three vidders who do a lot for vidding community. (Not that other people don't! See why this is hard for me?)

First, [livejournal.com profile] obsessive24 played a huge roll in my early vidding, and not just because she made the first vid that made me say, "I want to do that". She set up vidpub, which was already losing steam fast when I joined in 2012, but those discussions gave me my first sense of vidding community, the first time vidders talked to me and the first time I got feedback from any of my vids by other vidders. Nicky also offered kind but honest criticism to two of my early vids when I was absolutely dying for concrit and couldn't get it anywhere else because nobody knew who I was. Sadly my conversations with her have fallen off since I don't really do LJ anymore, but I'm forever grateful to the ways that she contributed to vidding discussion and community at a time when I didn't have any.

Speaking of defunct proboards sites, Elvira from Foolish Passions wrote up incredibly detailed tutorials that I treasured when I started vidding. Look, I know for some people she might come off as a bit snobbish in terms of codecs, where you get your source, etc, but for me, having incredibly clear, no-holds-barred instructions for the technical aspects of vidding was a complete lifesaver. I am a pretty impatient person with tech stuff, and I already deal with shit that doesn't work and has no instructions for 30/40 hours of my work-week, so there's a pretty good chance I would have given up on vidding altogether if it weren't for these tutorials.

Finally, a shout out to [personal profile] lithiumdoll for doing the web stuff for both VidUKon and Festivids. That's just awesome, and I imagine a pretty hair-pulling job at times.
frayadjacent: drawing from hyperbole and a half: cartoon girl at laptop at night, text says "vidding" (!vidding)
These are all questions from [personal profile] thirdblindmouse, via the vidding meme.

What's the best vidding advice you've ever come across? ([personal profile] goodbyebird also asked this)

To watch and study vids that I love, and figure out what makes them work for me. In my early days of vidding I did this often, and for a few vids I even watched the whole thing basically frame by frame and took down notes. That was how I realized, for example, that Bachelorette's intro goes through all the themes explored in the rest of the vid, basically giving an overview of the vid in the first 20 seconds. And that Nicky uses a fade to black between each section of the vid -- and nowhere else, I believe.

I don't do this as much anymore, except that I recently studied [personal profile] shati's vid "Boulevard of" while making "Become You", because I wanted to emulate both some of her cutting techniques, which I love, and the way she continued to revisit specific moments in the show throughout the vid as a way to drive home the themes.

I also remember reading the advice to read vid meta, which I would do anyway because it interests me. It helps with excitement and inspiration as well as learning tricks of the trade.

Do you use any tools, like clip notes or storyboards?

It depends on the vid. For example, my next vid in Xena Vid Series from Hell has a complete timeline of clip notes -- an extended marker describing what will go in each section. And I believe it does not yet have a single actual clip on it. Conversely, my current WIP, an Orphan Black vid, has no markers and a ~70% full timeline because the structure of the song is such that it's kind of obvious -- to me anyway -- what goes where, and because I've been able to import all the episodes directly into Premiere, which has changed my workflow quite a bit from what I usually do.

I used to always storyboard but I haven't done that in a while.

I also keep a vidding journal -- a trick I learned from [personal profile] kiki_miserychic -- where I scribble down ideas as they come to me. I carry it everywhere! It is an excellent tool and I highly recommend it. It occurs to me that I could also use a notes function in my smartphone for this, but personally I like having the written journal.

Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your vids being canon compliant?

Hmmm. I'd say I keep my vids compliant with my head-canon, which generally would not directly contradict canon or even stray much from it. But part of being in fandom for the last few years is that I've gotten much more comfortable with the general taking liberties with canon, especially if femslash is involved. So I might do it someday?

Actually, I for a couple years I had "Fire Door" saved as a Veronica Mars AU-ish vidsong. The idea was for a season 1 AU of sorts where in the end Veronica rejects both Logan and Duncan, along with all the other 09-ers. But I didn't envision it taking liberties with canon so much as a criticism of canon. At any rate, it's now and forever a Tyra vidsong, and I'm quite happy with it that way.

ETA: it occurred to me that another way to interpret the question is whether I use clips in their canon context, which is maybe a more useful way to think about this for vidding -- as opposed to writing fic, which this meme was originally designed for. And for that, I am very much happy to use clips out of context, but they'd still be supporting my reading of canon, as opposed to going totally AU. In fact when I am clipping/vidding I sometimes get too visual and don't consider the context of the clip enough. If it's not a well-known clip that's fine, but for famous moments it's almost impossible to divorce the clip from its context. I'm better at this than I used to be but my first vid or two contained some very famous clips in moments where they didn't work at all.

frayadjacent: Close up of Gabrielle looking straight into camera, determined, blood on her face (Xena: Gab determined)
I'm doing that vidding meme! And am happy to take more requests.

[personal profile] violace asked: Is there a genre or style you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole?

I don't know that I'd call it a genre or style, but anything with a lot of graphic violence -- or, more accurately, certain specific types of graphic violence. I can't even stand to watch that stuff, much less vid it. I also probably wouldn't do much with explicit sex/porn, but I won't say never. Actually the more I think about it the more it appeals to me as a challenge -- some day.

I suppose there is a style of vid to cheesy love ballads (e.g. Celine Dion) and whatnot that I can't really imagine making because I can't stand the music. I do genuinely appreciate the earnestness of such vids though. And I had to talk myself out of including Power of Two as a candidate vidsong for Xena Vid Series From Hell, so even that boundary is apparently squishy.

[personal profile] thirdblindmouse asked: Is there a section of canon above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?

So, since TBM asked, I'm going to talk about Xena canon here, because it's a shared interest and because that's the fandom where this question is easiest to answer. Because as much as I enjoy the camp and the slash and the fun of Xena, there is basically one thing that has inspired my intense fannishness for the Xena/Gab pairing and for the show overall, and that is Xena and Gabrielle's ongoing debate about How to Fight the Good Fight*.

For me, the two parter "The Debt" from Season 3 and Gabrielle's pacifism arc which is a focus of season 4 (but resonates throughout the series) are the center of this debate. In the early seasons of the show, Gabrielle is generally shown to be -- and believed by the characters to be -- the one with a more developed moral compass.  "The Debt" tears this apart by showing Gabrielle how much more complex the world is, and that a knee-jerk "killing is wrong" position can cause more harm than not. It is forever to my dismay that the S3 Rift Arc focuses so much on Hope and leaves Gabrielle's betrayal of Xena in "The Debt" as background, but I choose to read it differently, and that is an important part of both my XVSFH vids so far ("Become You" and "Starkville").

As Gabrielle spends more time with Xena and her worldview grows more complex, she finds that her love of Xena and her wish to not commit violence are irreconcilable. For a while she tries to practice non-violence while accepting that this is not an option for Xena, and tries to make it work. But it doesn't. It can't. So ultimately she chooses Xena, and I think breaks a little bit of her heart doing so.

I continue to be blown away by this arc, because I so often find the presentation of pacifism on shows to be obnoxious, heavy-handed, or dismissive. Xena takes pacifism seriously, and it also takes the violence of the world the characters live in seriously, and it integrates those themes into the characters' relationship -- it makes it deeply personal. And that is why I love it.

(OK, the other main reason I love Xena/Gab is because those two are always telling each other how much they love each other. That kind of open, honest communication is my relationship catnip, see also my love of Friday Night Lights.)

*This is also like 80% of my love for Angel the Series, and Gunn's character arc in particular, the other 20% being Lorne.

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3 Sep 2014 12:27 pm
frayadjacent: From "Veronica Mars": Veronica's head on her desk, text says "Fuck it, I need a nap" (VM: Fuck it need a nap)
I've just come back from my trip (more pictures to come!) and I'm immediately moving house. It's exciting but also stressful! And hard to get work when all I want to do is look at apartment listings and google street view of various areas and whatnot. But I'm trying to reign in my tendency to snatch up the first acceptable place I get. Today I went and viewed an apartment that I was excited about, found that it was a lot more run-down than it looked in the photos, but it was still OK, but I decided since this was the *first* place I looked at I could hold out hope for something better.

Later we're going to look at another apartment near the first one. The rent is comparatively low, the apartment looks decent on the website (yeah, we'll see), and I really like the area. But it's not a lot better than where we are now in terms of my commute. I'd probably still be looking at an hour commute each way, albeit in less busy stations than I am now, which would help. There's another area that has a few places for rent and seems like somewhere I'd enjoy living and would have a better commute, but there are fewer apartments generally there so I can't necessarily hold out hope that I'll find something in that area.

Also: sweet mother of jet lag. I was up at 3:30 AM with tons of energy for hours, but now I am *crashing*.
frayadjacent: drawing from hyperbole and a half: cartoon girl at laptop at night, text says "vidding" (!vidding)
To help with the daily posting! Comment with a number and I'll respond in a new post. I've deleted a few of these from the general meme that's been going around because I knew I wouldn't have anything to say about them. And because I'm lazy I didn't renumber.

1. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-vid.
2. Is there a genre or style you've yet to try your hand at, but really want to?
3. Is there a genre or style you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole?
4. How many vid ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?
5. Share one of your strengths.
6. Share one of your weaknesses.
7. Point to a section from one of your favorite vids you've made and explain why you're proud of it.
8. Which vid was the hardest to make?
9. Which vid was the easiest to make?
11. Is there a section of canon above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?
12. What's the best vidding advice you've ever come across?
13. What's the worst vidding advice you've ever come across?
14. If you only could vid one show/movie for the rest of your life, which show/movie would it be?
15. Do you work mostly from start to finish, or do you vid sections out of order?
16. Do you use any tools, like clip notes or storyboards?
18. Describe your perfect vidding conditions.
19. How many times do you usually revise your vid before posting?
20. Choose a section from one of your earlier vids and talk about whether and how you'd do it differently now. (Person sending the ask is free to make suggestions).
21. If you were to revise one of your older vids from start to finish, which would it be and why?
22. Have you ever deleted one of your published vids?
23. What do you look for in a beta?
24. Do you beta yourself? If so, what kind of beta are you?
25. How do you feel about collaborations?
26. Share three of your favorite vidders and why you like them so much.
27. Do you accept prompts?
28. Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your vids being canon compliant?
30. How do you feel about crack?
31. Which is your favorite site for posting vids?
32. Talk about your current vids in progress.
33. Talk about a comment or review that made your day.
34. Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?
frayadjacent: Buffy's face before jump in The Gift (BtVS: Buffy's Sacrifice)
I made it back safe and sound from Seattle. Thanks to exit row seats and xanex it was my best international flight ever. When I wasn't sleeping or playing Bubble Witch Saga I watched so many great VVC vids! I might do a recs post though I always feel a bit funny doing those since I don't watch nearly enough vids, even from a single event such as VVC, to feel like I can do any sort of authoritative recommendation.

And then when I ran out of VVC premieres I watched bits of Scooby Road and realised that Golden Slumbers/Carry That Weight still captures my Buffy-the-character feels like no other vid out there. And I delighted in [personal profile] laurashapiro's Mothership, which made me want to rewatch all of RTD Who until I remembered that I have Many Vid Plans.

Maybe I will save my Vid Plans for a future daily post?



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