[sticky entry] Sticky: My vids

26 Sep 2012 06:14 pm
frayadjacent: Willow and Xander with their hair standing on end, literally (BtVS: everything wonky)
All my vids: Angel, BtVS, Elementary, Friday Night Lights, Orphan Black, The Black Stallion, Whale Rider, and Xena )

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Feel free to to post my vids, post critiques, analysis, etc, and use them in transformative works.  I would be honored if anyone engaged with my fanworks in these ways. But please refer people to the individual vid post or this post if you do so.

You're also welcome to link to any of my public posts. However, if you know my real name, please do not associate that name with this journal or pseudonym.

Accessibility

In all my vids I warn for graphic violence, sexual and domestic violence, and major character death. I also warn for stuttery cuts and bright flashes (which are more likely to appear in my vids than the above). I welcome any questions about content of my vids as well as recommendations for warnings I haven't used; feel free to PM me here or gmail me at frayadjacent12.

I'm slowly adding subtitles to all my vids; if there's a vid you want subtitled right away, please let me know and I'll get to it first thing.

hi!

18 Jun 2015 03:05 pm
frayadjacent: Buffy with a goofy look on her face, text says "dork" (BtVS: Buffy dork)
I traveled to the US last week and got to spend a couple of days with the wonderful [personal profile] laurashapiro and also met [personal profile] cofax7. It was a great trip. A longer update is in the works, and I'm thinking about also posting a little about the conference I attended because it had some global warming information that might be of interest to some folks.

I am so, so happy with the comments I've received on my Buffy vid. I'll respond soon, but the wrists are acting up so it'll be a bit. :( but also \o/

Also my habitrpg avatar is currently cosplaying Buffy which feels like an unlocked achievement in some sort of geekdom measure.

frayadjacent: Buffy swinging a sword, text says "Big damn hero" (BtVS: Big damn hero)
Title: Never Look Away
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Song: Never Look Away by Vienna Teng
Summary: "you are made of nebulas and novas and night sky" (AKA a love letter to Buffy Summers by fray-adjacent, age 33 2/3)
Premiered at VidUKon 2015

Content Notes: Fast cuts and flashing lights, speed changes. Depression and vague references to suicide. Show-typical violence. Feel free to ask specific questions about content.

Download: 133 MB mp4 with subtitles | 56 MB mp4 with subtitles

Subtitles
are included in the download .zip files. You can delete the .srt file if you don't want subtitles. They are also available in the youtube streaming versions.

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frayadjacent: Xena and Gab riding Argo double (Xena: Xena Gab Argo)
I just posted to my "access list"; as I've mentioned before, my DW is becoming increasingly locked. If you don't see the post and you want to, comment here and I'll add you.
frayadjacent: Angel's Gunn in a lawyer suit with sunsety background (AtS: Lawyer!Gunn)
I have exactly 100 icons. There are a few that I really want to add. But I don't know if I'm up for deleting any current ones, and I'm kinda reluctant to step down that slippery slope of buying extra icon spaces. When will it ever stop? Why do you icon makers have to be so damn talented?
frayadjacent: medium shot of Faith circa season 7 looking determined (BtVS: Faith)
I finally saw Pacific Rim last night. At home, on my 15-inch laptop, just as it was meant to be seen. And now I:

1. know what y'all are talking about when you say "drift compatible". I had no idea that was from Pacific Rim. I thought it was one of those funny fandom things.

2. can watch those vids I've been holding off on for two+ years!

3. am pretty sure I'd have enjoyed it a lot more in the theater. I used to think of going to the movies as a bit of a waste of money, but since I moved (and I have a much higher disposable income!) I've come to enjoy it.
frayadjacent: Orphan Black: Helena hugging Sarah, who is handcuffed. (Orphan Black: Sarah and Helena)
More Orphan Black posts have crossed my dash in the last 24 hours than all of Season 3 previously. And I'm writing one too!

S3-E06: Certain Agony in the Battlefield )

A few minor things I didn't love )
frayadjacent: Lady watcher grinning, text says "fangirl" (!fangirl)
I saw Mad Max, and I'm closer than I've ever been to being really, actively fannish in a big fandom at its height. Is MM:FR a big fandom? Or becoming a big fandom? Please tell me it is. I want to experience this big fandom thing.

I might go see it again, even. I never do that.

(Obviously my main fandoms, Buffy and Xena, are huge, but I came to them a decade+ late. It's not the same at all.)

More thoughts on the show later; I'm at my laptop at the kitchen table which is a big no no RSI-wise. Better sign off.

Oops

19 May 2015 05:41 pm
frayadjacent: Willow looking like she could fuck you up (BtVS: Willow defiant)
I tried to argue to my coworkers at lunch today that one need not invoke a genetic cause of "homosexuality" (their word) in order for it to be morally OK. It's also morally fine if it is a choice! I'm pretty sure they think I'm a homophobe now.

(I suppose this would have been as good a time as any to come out at work, but given that I'm still somewhat dazed at having participated in a multi-minute conversation with my coworkers at all, it's not surprising I didn't.)
frayadjacent: Joyce comforting Buffy at the end of "Innocence" (BtVS: Buffy and Joyce)
Because I have some free time this morning while a bunch of processes run at work, and because when I feel like posting I should just do it.

I read Mark Field's Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Myth, Metaphor, and Morality until about halfway through season 4. I paid $1 for the e-reader version because it's hard for me to read long stuff online. I'm too distractable. Some parts of it were super interesting. I especially liked when he talked about the existentialist moral themes in BtVS. I haven't had the patience to actually read existentialist philosophy since high school, and on the whole I find it compelling in some senses and frustratingly individualistic in others.  Fields' characterization of existentialism and how it plays out in BtVS (and, implicitly, Angel) clarified a lot of that for me, in the sense that I realized that aspects of the shows' treatment of morality are apparently more coherent in their origins than I thought, even if I disagree with a lot of those origins.

I stopped reading it partly because everytime Field talks about Buffy having sex, it is judgmental and sexist and at times pretty gross. I can't say that he's drawing out themes that don't exist in the show -- they totally do -- but he not only fails to criticize those themes, he embraces them more wholeheartedly than the show itself does. Especially in Season 2, which he has a whole Freudian take on that, like I said, is not un-supported by the show but also kinda makes me blech. Also, I started to get tired of it and realized I really wanted to be reading some fiction. Which leads me to....

I finally started Ancillary Justice. Which I'm now about one quarter of the way through, and, I don't know. I love epic stories, but I'm tired of how often they are from the point of view of military officers and politicians and aristocrats and royalty. I don't need empire from the POV of the imperialists, even if the narrative doesn't condone the imperialism (which this doesn't). There are elements that I like, enough that I'm going to keep reading, and I keep hoping that a twist will come.
frayadjacent: Xena and Gab sexily staring into each other's eyes (Xena: Xena/Gab sexy)
Ever since last year when I read Gail Simone's Wonder Woman run, where Diana tries (and fails) to court a man, I've been craving more stories where a woman really actively pursues a romance (with any gender person). I think this is the root of why I so often fail at shipping: writers are so rarely interested in showing me that a lady character is even interested in the other person, much less actively courting them.

What I'd really love to see is Lady Character pursing the object of her affection awkwardly -- with inappropriate grand gestures, for example. (But not Awkwardly Not Pursuing said object a la early season Willow and Xander, I've got plenty of examples of that.) And I'd love examples where she succeeds and examples where she doesn't.

Where do I find this? I had secretly hoped The Mindy Project would do it, but alas it didn't, not really. I get it occasionally from books (spoilers for The Outskirters Secret )).

huh

25 Apr 2015 03:27 pm
frayadjacent: Black and white image of Buffy and Willow talking circa S4 (BtVS: Buffy and Willow Friendship)
That End of Year Vidding Meme has the category "Most Unintentionally Telling Video". I usually skip that one because I don't even know what that means. Until now, anyway.

I realized that my WIP unintentionally shows that the most important relationships for Buffy -- to me -- are her relationships with Dawn and with Willow. (Giles is also super important to me! But he didn't make it into the vid as much.) I've spent a lot of time thinking about and discussing her relationships with Angel, Riley, and Spike, and there's a lot of important stuff about her character in there. But at the end of the day, it's all about Buffy & Dawn, Buffy & Willow, and Buffy & Giles.
frayadjacent: Buffy with a goofy look on her face, text says "dork" (BtVS: Buffy dork)
I caught up completely on Steven Universe last night, and you guys THIS SHOW HAS STOLEN MY HEART. It's so good. I have that "I want to rewatch it all the time" feeling that I haven't had about a new show in a good long while. <3

A few favorite moments:

Spoilers for the first season! )

And[personal profile] beccatoria made a glorious SU vid: Blue/Pink (note it has major spoilers for the whole first season!)

meh

22 Apr 2015 02:13 pm
frayadjacent: Willow frowning, text says "meh" (!meh)
I don't know if it's my mood, or if I've re-watched it too many times, but my WIP is suddenly completely failing to bring out feels in me. And I mean it to be a feels vid!  I think I need to finish filling out that timeline and then give it a couple days off. But not too many days! Deadlines and whatnot.
frayadjacent: Buffy and Willow, who's the only part of the image in color and is wearing a silly outfit. Text says "adorkable". (!Adorkable)
I was pretty disinterested when The Mindy Project came out because I'm not usually drawn to stories that focus on romance (no disrespect to those who are, it's just not my cup of tea), and the whole "professional woman succeeds in work but fails in love" added an extra layer of unappealing. However, I read an interesting interview with Kaling in a waiting room magazine a couple years ago, and I adored Kaling's character in The Office. In December we finally got around to giving it a try.

At first I had mixed feelings. I loved Mindy Lahiri almost immediately. Her boisterous charisma, her love for her job, her romanticism, and most of all her confidence and unwillingness to apologize for herself, are all my fannish catnip. Also, Mindy Kaling has incredible comic timing and writes and performs her character so well. But everyone else was completely unfunny and uninteresting, the Dianne/Sam thing with Danny left me cold (that trope usually does) hot with rage at what an asshat he was.

But the show evolved, something with the writing or acting gelled and it started to work better for me, maybe mid or late S1. Though Mindy is still the center of it for me, I enjoy the show as a whole more than I did at first. I'm not thrilled about recent plotlines and I maintain that spoiler for season 3 ). But really, as long as she keeps being a badass gynecologist and eating doughnuts and making me laugh out loud more than most things on television, I'll be fine with whatever this show does.

In February we watched Empire and fell under the spell of Cookie Lyon. There was a lot to like, but Cookie and Porsha's dynamic was my favorite. The finale was so upsetting though! I just want everyone to unite against Lucious and support each other. (Actually I'm not sure I want Andre in on that.)

One thing I liked about it was that despite having an ostensible anti-hero main character, the show avoided the things I hate most about that trope by giving it a strong ensemble with all the characters having agency. I never feel manipulated into rooting for someone I detest because the show actively encouraged me to root for Cookie, or Jamal or Hakeem, often against Lucious.

Also, I have never seen a show that appeared to be written not just about, but also FOR, Black people, to the extent that Empire is. Like I feel like this show really doesn't care much about its white audience and is very interested in Black points of view. To the point that the show even employs a Black stereotype of a scheming, manipulative white woman. It's refreshing to see (not so much the stereotype I suppose, but the rest of it).

After mourning the season finale of Empire and the series finale of Parks and Recreation, we watched all of Broad City. I predictably fell in love with Abbi and her goofy face and their friendship. It has an unrequited lady-love thing that for some reason doesn't bother me. The show is fun and adorable and I liked it a lot. The season 1 finale -- directed by Amy Poehler! -- was my favorite episode.

I recently started watching Bunheads with a friend -- I haven't had a tv date with a friend since I left Seattle, so I'm really happy to be doing that. I spent the whole pilot going "WTF is happening I hate this trope why does [personal profile] chaila like this show well I guess I better trust [personal profile] chaila not to lead me astray oh the lead is having sex she likes and now she's dancing with Emily Gilmore things are looking up WAIT DID I HEAR THAT PLOT TWIST RIGHT IS THIS SHOW MADE SPECIFICALLY FOR MEEEEE?????". I spent the next two episodes basking in the glory of those last few minutes of the pilot and delighting in the general absence of men *anywhere*. And adoring Bunheads!Emily Gilmore. And the teenage girls who are all very cute. I'm looking forward to more.

Finally, we've recently started Steven Universe and it's super adorable and fun. I would like it to spend more time with all the Crystal Gems, I don't enjoy the scenes with Steven without the Gems as much as I do the whole group. I'm like 6 or 7 episodes in so no spoilers!

I'm still watching and mostly enjoying Elementary, but I don't have anything to say about it. At all, ever, lately, now that I think about it. :/ I do enjoy reading fannish interpretations on Tumblr, and I always love Elementary fic.

I stopped watching Sleepy Hollow after the episode early/mid S2 spoiler ). I didn't hate quit (though if anything were to get me to, that'd be high on the list), I just lost motivation, especially when I kept hearing general fannish unhappiness at it after that. I heard the finale was good. I still intend to watch it, it's just a matter of carving out the time and motivation.

Mr Adjacent and I started a Buffy rewatch about a year and a half ago, and we stalled out on season 6. Which used to be one of my favorite seasons, but lately I don't have it in me to watch characters I love suffer like that. Anyway, we finally pushed through (I watched the last 4 episodes without him) and are enjoying S7 quite a bit. I'll never be a S7 detractor -- though I do tire of Buffy's speeches.

I can't wait for Orphan Black to start up again!

frayadjacent: Delphine's face looking shocked, black background (Orphan Black: Delphine)
Title: Milkshake & Honey
Fandom: Orphan Black
Song: Milkshake 'n' Honey by Sleater-Kinney
Pairings: Cosima/Delphine, Sarah/Cal, Sarah/Paul, Alison/Donnie, Felix/Colin, Rachel/Paul, Siobhan/Carlton, Helena/Helena's boyfriend, Felix/Tony.
Summary: took my heart, my best jeans, and left me with paying the rent.
Much thanks to [personal profile] kuwdora for beta and cheerleading!
Premiered at Escapade 2015, but by happy coincidence was finished on Valentines Day 2015.

Content Notes: Uses scenes through S2, but spoilers are more of the character/relationship variety than the plot variety. Portrays scenes that are dub-con in the source as sexy and playful; includes sexualized depictions of needles and medical procedures; and shows female-on-male intimate partner violence as sexy and/or funny. Feel free to ask specific questions about content.

Download: 117 Mb 720p mp4 + subtitles

Subtitles are included in the download .zip files. You can delete the .srt file if you don't want subtitles. They are also available in the youtube streaming versions.

Streaming: Critical Commons | Youtube (with subtitles)




frayadjacent: Rachel Duncan dressed as Sarah Manning, blue and pink background (Orphan Black: Rachel)
from Slate: Why are so many Americans in prison? -- this law professor argues it isn't the drug war, but aggressive DAs.
If you released every person in prison on a drug charge today, our state prison population would drop from about 1.5 million to 1.2 million. So we’d still be the world’s largest incarcerating country; we’d still have an enormous prison population.
frayadjacent: Delphine's face looking shocked, black background (Orphan Black: Delphine)
1. I'm very slowly making my way through Festivids, alphabetically, only skipping vids with "chooses not to warn" (though even then if I'm familiar with the source or I see lots of "that was fun/delightful/sweet" type comments, I'll go for it). I'm really enjoying the vids! A lot of people have posted recs and I'm not going to do that, but if you like vids and you haven't checked out Festivids yet, here they are. Also I've been pleased to find that after watching a vid I can leave not just a semi-coherent comment but I can usually say something specific that I liked about the vid, which I chalk up to having more experience watching and talking about and especially beta-ing vids. It feels nice to have the vocabulary and mental framework to be able to do that without difficulty.

2. [personal profile] kuwdora is going to mentor me/work with me for the rest of the year on vidding! I am very excited about this arrangement. To that end, today I wrote out a timeline of vid projects for 2015, keeping in mind con deadlines and whatnot. It's ambitious but doable if I stay on top of vidding, and if I make the seven vids on the list then I'll have said the most important things I currently want to say about my two most beloved fandoms, BtVS and Xena. If I manage to actually do it, I wonder how that might change vidding for me. I've had a few things hanging over my head and the idea of having them finished this year sounds really really good.

3. I am finally really running again! So much so that I bought a new running shirt, because I was going through them too quickly. My mileage is still painfully low. I look back on the days when I regularly ran 4-6 miles without stopping and I can't imagine it; I'm going more like 2-3 miles and having to stop and walk several times. BUT I'm doing it.

4. I've been really struggling to focus lately. On everything: work, vidding, chores, Festivid-watching, even relaxing. And it's felt related to a general crankiness and uptick in my (mild) anxiety. Last weekend was one of those that just happened, and at the end I didn't even know what I'd done. I hate that feeling and the listlessness keeps building with it, but today I came to a realization: not every day has to have a perfect story arc, a Thing I Did. I don't have to clean the whole house or have an epic day of vid-farr or hang out with people all day. I can poke at a vid and chat with people on Twitter and watch one episode of one show and do a chore or two and go running and just kind of hang out, and *that's fine*. And I immediately felt much better. And I know this will pass; like most people, I imagine, I have phases where my focus is better and phases where it isn't.

5. Shows I'm enjoying right now: Elementary, The Mindy Project, Selfie, and a Key Episode Farscape rewatch. And tonight I'm going to check out Fresh of the Boat.


frayadjacent: Adaped from the hyperbole & a half comic, stick figure girl is very excitedly shouting "vid all the things!!!" (Vid all the things!!!)
Current (Escapade) vid is the total and complete opposite of What's Mine is Yours. I have little trouble finding the clips I want, and matching them to the music is damn near effortless.

I did have a moment of "OMG this vid is terrible, I need to stop now", but it was because I was trying to force it into a structure that neither the song nor the footage supported. Lately when I get new vid ideas, my brain!vid is a lot less focused on imagining a few specific clips to a few specific moments in the song, and a lot more focused on how I'll structure the vid. "This verse will be about X, the chorus will be about Y", etc. It makes listening to my vidsongs on repeat a lot less fun than it used to be, but it's a helpful stage in the vidding (and idea elimination) process.

But with Current Vid, I was much more entranced with how the song made me feel a lot like how (certain aspects of) the source made me feel. And I wanted the vid to capture that. But then when I started vidding my brain went immediately to "structure! Which section is for which thing?!" and that was kinda ruining the vid. Last night I had an epiphany that this was the vid I'm always saying I want to make, a vid that's less about an argument and more about a feeling, that's less about coherently distilling something that struck me about canon (characters and/or relationships) and more about why I find this source so sexy.

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